My Eyes
A Journey Into My Schizophrenia
Hello there, you've made your way into my little world.Â
My name is Bee and at 17, I was diagnosed with schizophrenia.
Throughout this terrifying journey, I've found some ways to cope and one of those is painting.Â
This blog is a peak through my eyes and what I see and think everyday.
Each week, I will post a painting and explain what it means and how creating it helped me.
I'd love to build a safe community here.Â
I'm here for each and every one of you.
Last, I'd like to give a TRIGGER WARNING. Some paintings or topics may be triggering to some.
Reach Out If You Are Struggling.
Some numbers to call.
SUICIDE AND CRISIS LIFELINE - 988
SCHIZOPHRENIA HOTLINE - 866-903-3787
NAMI HELPLINE - 800-950-6264
The Red Ones
Red Hallucinations
I went through a very rough time where all of my hallucinations were red and angry. I spent an obsessive amount of time painting them. I became so engrossed in them that I gave them the power over me that they wanted. Below are some paintings I created while going through that hard couple months. I no longer see the "red ones" anymore.
Getting Help
My Struggles through Recovery.
Fighting For Her
I have always had the goal to gain my power back from many things. Getting help was the best and bravest thing I ever did. There have been many bumps in the road to recovery. This next section of art is the art I have made during recovery. Some good and some bad, but I will always fight for my power back and I hope you do too.
Let's Be Friends :)
Thank you.
Thank you so very much to my family and friends who have always supported me no matter what part of my journey that I stumble through. They have always believed in me, and stumbled with me. I love you all so very much and will forever owe my soul to you.